I hate Uni. Yes, i really really do. Maybe cause it's just the beginning, but honestly, i'm not ready for this sort of life. I just came back from my first lecture and tutorial and i am honestly not keen in what is in store for me. And really, i've never felt so alone in my life, ever.

Yes, i might have said a similar thing when i was in college, but that was different. At least in college, i had people in the same campus as me. And my college campus wasn't that big anyways. And my class was a small class, so you could say that it was kinda easier to mix around with everyone. But not here.

No one is in the same campus as me. I feel so lost whenever i'm around campus. People said orientation week is the time you make friends that will stick to you for the rest of your uni life. I hated O-week. I honestly wanted to go to a corner and cry because i really felt so out of place there. And there are so little bloody asians in my class. i'm pretty sure business course would be full of them. I'm starting to not like anything in my life. When i went for Orientiation for the school of media and communication, i was really lost. Everyone there was like, happily talking to someone, or they had their friends there. Me? I felt so out of place, with no one to cling on to. Like that new T-ara member, who always seems lost in the group.

And there are also 2 malaysian girls in my course, but they don't seem so friendly cause they're always in their 2 world, and maybe they're not keen in making friends with me cause i look like a hobo. :(

I really want to go home, back in Malaysia, rewind time and be in college, or in high school, where at least i'll have someone to cling on to, to talk to, to laugh with, to tease with. Now, i can't do either of it, cause i'm all alone.