I cry like some fool
Thursday, March 11, 2010 >>8:06 PM
Well, i really didn't know the reason i cried in class today. I mean, one part of me was really
really happy for my brother because he scored straight a's (8 A+ and 1 A). Like, i was tremendously happy for him because his hardwork was paid off. But part of me cried at those results because he has set a bar for me to overcome. I know people say that I'm a different individual to my brother and all, and that i should score as
me, and not because of
him. But, every time the mention of
8 A+ pops into my head, i would automatically think of one thing only,
to get freaking 9 A+'s. And i think that was what really brought me to
foolish tears, because the fact that i very well know that it's not POSSIBLE for me to score 9A+'s in any sort of exam because i'm really not that smart to start with. Atleast not as smart as my brother. I know if i try hard enough i can
have atleast 0.001% POSSIBILITY of reaching that goal, but the rate i'm going now, i may as well jump off the roof or something. Not that I have low confidence or self esteem, but as they say
do what you can reach, and 9A+ is pretty much unreachable at the moment. But, this whole 8A+ is giving me determination in studying. I actually understood why i suddenly cried, because i wanted to live up to my mothers words. "I'm very proud of your brother, i hope you can make me proud too."
Hello there! I finally have the time to blog! I've finished off most of my homework and can relax for a little while! XD I've got to go study history in a moment. :D
The SPM results were out today! And, i would like to take this opportunity to congratulate my brother (not that he reads my blog anyways) for getting staright A's! Though i don't really show it in my face, but i was pretty nervous when he was getting his results. But, i was happy and relieved when i found out what he got. I always knew he could do it because, no matter how much i hate my brother, he's pretty damn smart. (:
And i'm starting to like watching Glee. The songs they sing in the movie is quite nice. At least, ALOT BETTER THAN HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL. XDD And well, their Don't stop believing is really nice. XD I enjoy hearing that because it somehow gives you the motivation to do something that you want to achieve (in my case now, studying to get good results). I know i'm rambling again, but what the heck yea? XD
Yes, i may be a cry baby and all, and i may cry over small matters, i'm not that sensitive. I still can't really explain why the hell i cried in the first place, but no, i don't ACTUALLY cry over every small matter. Just needed to clear something up. :O
Well, i guess thats it for the day. I'm pretty exhausted now. ): Everyone was so worried over me. I'm so sorry you guys! I promise not to be such a hassle over such small matters in the future! XD Thank you for really supporting me. :D
Labels: brother, cries, Ramblings, SPM
