Sunday, April 28, 2013 >>7:20 PM

Sometimes i question my decisions. I know i don't make the best decisions. The best i can do is follow my heart. But even so, sometimes i don't even know what my heart wants.

If you love someone or something, and you made a decision to let it go, every so often, you'll question yourself whether did you make a good decision of letting that go. Why would you let go of someone or something that you love? If it's love, isn't it wise to hold on to it? For me, i let go because of distance. I know the future isn't certain, but to not have that physical object of love when you need it at a very tough time really drains, mentally. It was the hardest thing i had to do to date. Letting that person go was as if i was letting go my pillar of support. Now, i don't have anyone to fall back to and catch me. It's like a never ending free fall.

Do i regret my decision? A part of me does, a part of me doesn't. Do i still love that someone? Of course i do. I believe in fate, if we're meant to be, we'll be together eventually, not long distance. If anyone asks me whether long distance will ever work; only if that person has a very strong will then it would work. I'm not strong, i have the weakest will ever. Maybe that's why. Maybe it's just all me.

If we're in the right place and the right time, maybe we'll walk the same path again? I'm sorry, and i love you, really.

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