I'm not asking that you cry or feel sad or anything. I'm just so disappointed that you can't remember her at all. I know it's been 2 years, though it feels much much shorter than that. But i just really cannot stand this attitude of yours. I'm not even scared if you read about this. I'm just gonna unfollow you on twitter cause i cannot stand your tweets anymore. Yes, of course i know you still like that girl, but to post it on your twitter everyday about how much of a pain you feel, how you can't shake that feeling of, how you're always reminded of her and that you can't get her off your mind. Obviously she'll read your emo tweets sooner or later. Don't you think that'll make her feel bad? Don't you think you're making the whole situation harder? It's been what, friggin' 7 to 8 years? It's time for you to let go man. Don't keep dwelling on your past and for God's sake, just MOVE ON. That's the problem with you, you don't think before you do or blurt any single fecking word out of your bloody mouth.

But i just can't accept that you have forgotten, someone you do know in fact, has passed away. Shame on you. Shame on you faeng wey.

/ranting end

It's been a rather... rough week. Yes, it's supposed to be my relaxing week before i study my fudging ass for for finals. But, uni applications are such a pain in the ass, friendship officially ended, arguments, you name it. I don't think i've cried this much in a week, ever. This comes to prove that i'm SUCH a big crybaby. :'(

Ah well, since i can't go swimming, time to be my mom's driver. :P

I somehow can't stand people, to put it nicely, have a 2 face.

Lets' put it in this way.

Lets' say, i have this friend, and this friend is liked by always anybody. Considered as the perfect person. Anyways, this person already has a partner, for quite a while in fact. And i have this other friend that likes that person and that person also likes my other friend, more than a friend in fact, but can't do anything because that person is taken. That other friend of mine is practically suffering everyday because of my friend's selfish demeanor of not wanting to let my other friend go.

I mean, if you so obviously love your partner, you wouldn't want to give any fake hope right? Give the wrong impression, giving very very fake hope. Imagine if you were in that position, would you be happy to keep someone on the hook like that? Your excuse just makes me want to laugh because honestly, i think you don't want to give either one up because you're scared you'll be alone in the end. Just, stop with the act? I'm so sick and tired of it.

I'm sorry if everything is so confusing, but i'm just letting my frustration out. Can't i have a life without any drama? Is that so much to ask for? Let's go back to the stoneage, where all that mattered was food, shelter and each other. That's all.