SO ANYWAYS, yesterday i went out with my besties! :D After so long of not seeing them, i finally moved my ass and went on a girls day out with them. :D It was a lot of fun, and i've never really felt so relaxed in a long, long time. Thank you so much for the girls day out. :) And Alex, thanks for coming. I haven't seen your pervy face in, God knows how long. You'll always be my lelaki sejati. ♥

I've always regard myself as a weak person. I mean, even every little obstacle i face, i feel like giving up and don't really have the determination to get better and move on. Yes, i do take constructive criticism but my determination span is mush, like tofu. I mean, it's not that i don't try, because i really really do, but my determination is very VERY low. For instance, my driving. I mean, no matter how many times i drive, my mom will always find fault in my driving. Yes, i'm still new and i need more practice, but i've been driving for over a month and my mom still shouts at me in the car. Sometimes she'll even comment "I don't how did you even get your licence.". I mean like, if you want to insult my driving, go ahead, i don't give a shit at all, but seriously? I worked hard on getting my licence, no shit. I didn't even bribe, and i passed the first time. Don't expect me to drive like you. I've only been driving for a month, and you've been driving for God knows how long. You can comment, but please please don't insult my effort, because i worked really hard on getting that licence when you had zero confidence in me to even pass. Thanks a lot for the encouragement.

I'll go watch City Hunter now.

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I'm having one of those moments where i just want to lie down and stare at my ceiling, doing completely nothing and listen to emo songs all day. But too bad, i don't have the time to do that. I realised i've been daydreaming more lately, because i often find myself zoning out in classes, and even the occasional chat with friends. And i've been so tired and restless lately. I guess college have taken my stamina and motivation away.

I actually prefer to cry in the comfort of my smelly pillow, or being just alone, because it's a moment where you let your feelings pour and not really wanting anybody to see it. But i couldn't control it yesterday. I just couldn't. I was fighting so hard to hold it back, but it just came out anyways.

And i know i can be a pain in the ass most of the times, and probably inconsiderate to the extent of probably ignoring you, you'll always be my best friend. Always.

Tomorrow is the SAM charity fest, hopefully it'll be fun then. As of now, i really hate my life.

X

He proceeded to ask everyone in the class, but me. I was waiting for my turn to give my answer, but he didn't ask me.

I wanted to say "Love is full of bliss when you're happy and full of sorrow when you're sad".

I can't help but say that life is blissful for me now, besides the hectic college schedule. ;)